I miss you so much..

There's no place I can really shout out right now. I wish there is someone I can talk to and willing to listen to me.

Somehow it seem so difficult to even find a close friend to talk about anything you want and give constructive advise.

Job selection is just getting messed up, thing just doesn't goes as I want.
Job offer is getting shitty, and I'm still hoping that some miracle going to happen between another 2 more company so that I can finally secure my job in the future.

I not looking at any position or career advance right now, but the pay and benefit they offer. Just to be realistic, I need a job just to continue my life and my living. Period.

End of my confession.
I wish he somehow is here to hold me in his arm to listen to me carefully, and kiss me on my forehead and tell me good advise. I miss you bad

Need to find back my bubbly self.. =)

Period.

Strange feeling hit again..

Writing a post in blog spot or any other blog website, probably one of the way of expressing your inner feeling, which is the feeling that is so hard to express and describe to other people..

I post an entry once in a while when, I think I got the words to put it in here..

So nonetheless..the feeling just hit me again. There so much mixed feeling inside me..sometime I feeel, wake up and get my ass to work, and work harder and harder..and get paid at the end of the month..which is the life I can't avoid at all. I can do the same routine everyday..I can tell the same story to other people or new people I met everyday. I call this boring routine work life - The reality..

Sometime I felt, I should against the whole thing! I need to express myself from head to toe, inside out, I need to tell them who the boss now! Working in this city is not an easy task at all, trust me when you dealing with such much races country..you will see lots of faces , personalities, characteristic in this societies. Where this more than enough to make you sick..I always thought and tell myself to calm down ...calm down...calm down...I tell myself that..the world is beautiful..world is so much to get mad and angry of this tiny little human in the city..

Back to reality again, I can't avoid it to deal with people that they close their mind and work so serious. I'm a fun and easy going person when it come to work..I think work can be so much fun..but oh well too bad..- The reality...


Maybe I should open up myself to the world, I love to meet new people, talk to people, experience the world, exposed myself to different culture, Although I already have one completely different culture boyfriend, but I'm really looking forward to know his country more..

I always failed to get social with my friend due to laziness..!!! Maybe I should keep up my pace again.. I do not want to lock myself under the deep down well like the frog.. only looking at the small part of the world.

Life is all about everything that make possibilities, Life is all about how you going to make yourself more happy than who you are right now, Life is all about how you make it so much more beautiful, Life is all about how you share the joy and happiness with others, Life don't just stop here like it or not, Life is about YOU!

..Would like to update here more whenever I got the words again, but words don't just stop here, because it always run in our head..

p/s: some people might don't even get what you trying to say sometime because most probably when the word run into their head it become different meaning/definition.. There are not stupid/dumb, our brain just run different.

Wandaring

Love to look at blossom flower..
It's make me feel good.. Do you love these blossom as much as I do?

I already missing you..from all of my heart..I wish to spend more time with you.
I might not know how to talk, react from time to time..but I hope I'm still the one that you love always..

I will always be right here waiting for you, whenever you need me..I will be there for you.

Perfection

I got this peeeerfect dress for my up coming event from A|X ..

I finally found something that similar to Herve Leger well known The Bandage Dress!

I've been look for this kind of dressed since ages! Herve Leger is wayyy too expensive for someone like to me buy it! A 6k dress? hell no! if only im that rich, then maybe yes!

and behold, my lovely bandage dress and it's worth for money! ;) thnx baby.

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I always look for perfection, but unfortunately, perfection doesn't come to me..at all..

There's so much to tell and confess inside me, but, there no where I can confess and express it out the way I want..not even here!

For you

Baby..

I want to tell you that I love you more than anything in this world.

I want to tell you that I need you more than anything in this world.

Without you, there would be no me, there would be no happiness, there would be no life, there would be no light.

Without you, my world will be dark forever.

Thanks for coming to my life...

And thanks for loving me and keep me strong whenever I'm weak..

Let's start all over again

When things goes wrong..
We probably give up!..I say it...i give up....

But when you know you want and need someone in your life so bad...how can you give up and walk away just like that? like you never love this person before?
Where's your heart?

And the solution is...let's start over again, let's try for another time to fall in love for the first time with this man..feel his hug strong and powerful..use your heart to feel his heart just beat for you..

We turn things around to the good way..take it easy and let's start all over again...

We only blessed for one life to love someone..

We don't get a chance to love the same person in next life..remember this..
We'll all forget who we loved, who we met in this life..Family, Friends, Lover...

I hope Forever do exist...