Rainbow after the rain

I got tonnes of stuff to put in this post today, so let me be..this my journal to be exact.

Have you ever feel this way before? ..Last week, I get so mad, frustrated, stressed, almost all the shitty thing happen on me for few days...I try to look at my life, what did I archived so far...I can't give the answer to myself.

Once, when I'm still in college, I thought to myself that maybe one day I become very successful logistician/economies..I guess i was wrong..It never been easy at work at all, and I realize that I'm not as good as others..

One things I hate the most about work environment is that , everything have to be so challenging and competitive, and all the human around you love to judge, compare .. and they want you to have the exact same vision at work, or even same life perspective with them, as a workaholic..why?!

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I love my job, i love my company..
But I'm definitely having hard time at work dealing with some human, but I'm trying to fit into it and take it as my own challenge. I'm not trying to be as good as others but, at least I'm not quit my job when there problem exist.

On Thursday evening, there's a thunderstorm. Strong wind, very heavy rain while I'm my way back home from the office.

Most of the cars start pulling off and stop beside the highway..because is really hard to drive with that kind of situation and I barely saw what in front of me besides the whole lots of water pouring on the windscreen.

I did have a thought of pulling off too, but I think myself, lets give a shot, and try to focus on the light from the front car.

After I drove 5km, the rain get better...and the rain actually inspired me, something i can relate to..

When face trouble in your life (The heavy rain), don't give up (don't pull off even is dangerous), although I don't know what going to happen next( take risk, even I can't even tell where the road)..go ahead and give a try..don't give up on the problem, and let work it even if it's gonna end up in bad way...I know i do my best and i give as much effort.

this is similar on what i saw on the screen while I'm driving that day.( I Google the picture)

Rainbow after the rain, I guess just forgot how it feel like..but I'm feeling it all over again..

Life wasn't easy but I learned that Life is so beautiful..and I find its too short to live with people that you love and care..

I learned to view it another side..and I feel good with it.




so what you learned ? mind to share?

Parents

I love my parents,
and I know they love me as much as I do.
Somehow we party wouldn't know how to confess much about it.

I love to talk to them whenever I can.
But maybe I wasn't good in talk or not good to start a conversation with someone.
I always failed to make them laugh on what I say.
On the other hand, they probably laugh and happy talking with both of my brothers..whatever my brothers talk about, they pay attention and show interest in it...

I feel left out somehow...very...
I'm already used to this..since long time...but it will never felt any better..

I wonder how to tell them I love and care about them alot,
despite all of this things happen..they are my beloved mum and dad..
They love me alot, just showing me different way and care about me different.

God bless My mum and dad, for a healthy good life.

Pursuit of Our own HappYness

It been a while,
Sometime I will wonder how people keep updating their own blog, putting in every thought in their own blog.

I guess finally I got the answer,
Everyone have their own life, their own story, their very own happiness in their life.
So as I, sometime, we'll wondering why are people become a workaholic, work from day til night? - this is thier life, the life they choose , and the way that make them happy, where they found success and satisfactions in it.

Etc , Etc, Etc....Etc...any story you can think about. this is their life. World of our own :)

Nothing is forever. nothing. Even at the moment, it just last for a while. and then...*poof* gone.
I need to learn how to appreciate and cherish each of everyone around me, I only have them once in this life. but I'm bit greedy, I hope god give mercy ...send them back to me next life.

We need to live this life to the max!

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I might doubt and even suspect my own boyfriend being disloyalty....but the fact is I actually create my own imagination lately! which is very sick of having this kind of feeling, making me tired, fatigue!!!

until today, I'm awake! he being so nice and so patience with me. even I nagged keep annoy him, he just be there and patience, just to make me feel better. *L o v e y o u*

I guess after all, it's really doesn't matter how long you dating each other.
as long as he still with me, there where i found love..

I need to keep my word =)
Pursuit of Happyness.

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Broken heart.

How much you actually aware and understand?

This going to be a very confusing post.
I mean, very confuse .

Just asking myself, how much does others people realize and aware what you've done ?
what've you been telling them, the word, how much they absorb and take it seriously and knowing that you mean every single word? I hope whoever reading, get what i just put it down.

Example, when you say I'm sorry, how much do you understand the word, Sorry ! think again.
here another, when you tell someone " I love you " ..how much you mean it? can you actually feel it come out from your heart..? you it just any other word.

How much you understand the word, Appreciate... take a moment and think how much you appreciate people that you loved around you, think again...what've you done that you make them feel you truly appreciate their Appearance in you life..

Try to take sometime in your busy day, to at least send a text or give a call, make them feel you think about them or at least he/she know he cross your mind for a minute. that you actually care about them, make someone feel important, just like you want other do it to you. . just a fact.. that we might neglect and not aware about it..


Imysm <3

Life is too short

50 year to be in love with someone..is really to short.
where the forever gone to..?

50 years to appreciate and be together with someone you love, is too short,
where the forever gone to ..?

50 years down the road, is wasted that both didn't realise how short is the 50 year is or even less.

tell myself, i had the best with me, just for me,
cherish and appreciate him and hope for the next 50 year will still be him.

50 years..just too short.
Minus 2 = 48 years to go..
numbers is scary, anything involve with numbers...scary.
time, money, age...which one you fear the most.

will he be reading this..
God know.

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I never thought that so hard to be apart..
being so far from you..=(
Couldn't reach you as I want or used to be..

Miss you so much already..

Counting down for another 14 days,
It seem like forever now..

On this joyous festive season...you not with me like year before..:(
trying so hard to keep myself occupied..but it seem , there something missing.
Thing that missing is you , who not around to share and be with me ..

Called once a day from you seem not enough for me...=(
miss you dearly...

2 is better 1...

Previous entry is a little embarrassed.. :)
But from my previous entry..i truly know that I wasn't alone..and there always someone ready to be there for me..=) thanks guys..you know who you are..you so sweet..

Current life was playing not bad tone..:)
After quit Samsung ..I felt so much better..and again, like mum say..i much happier now when I back from work from the present new co. =D

I guess after all it wasn't a bad move.

Things to update:

Good new! Going to Singapore for training soon! :)
Excited yet bit nervous...not sure if i can meet the expectation of my manager..!

The boyfriend going back to his country for 3week holiday :(
Please come back soon...I'm gonna miss you ..:(

I'm on my Diet plan...For real this time...and soulmate getting so sick about me..LOL!
Is wasn't easy to on healthy diet plan, when come to food lover like me..
And i resist to take any pill and all kind of thing..healthy first!
Tablet and all that probably gonna ruined your health when u getting old..i did not wan to suffer my older year..

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Favorite song of the day :

[Heart] Taylor Swift, her song bring a lots memories to us. Her song and our love..grow together..



Especially for you baby..=)
Going to miss you bad, when you not around me...


Some picture update..!
Hardly take any picture lately..